Happiness's Bane

Ever felt the feeling that something some where is wrong? and yet you still are happy where you are when you are? Well this is about such a feeling.

When I am down, and cranky and upset and all those adjectives that people hate to be in, I usually think of even worse situations that I might have landed in, what this does is, makes me wanna be happy. But when I am happy, chirpy and just plain old GAY[pun not intended] I feel like something is wrong and it would be stripped away from me, this doesnt make me feel more happier it just pulls me back into a sorry state of affairs. Well, atleast it used to a couple of years back. Now, I have a mantra for happiness, if you are feeling happy, think not it is not going to stay, think You can be happier! thus I think follows the pursuit of happiness which is everlasting and will never end. Mind you, don't get yourselves tangled up with mistaking happiness with luxury or richness, they are different, heck if you dont want to take my word, or even Mr. Oxford, or Mr. Webster's word for it, try it!

Becoming

So its been quite a long, since I wrote last. What prompted me to write today is the fact that I remembered this whole blogging experience is more so of a release of my thoughts and it really helps me to put myself straight! I am still a teen and I got the PS2 slim, cheap titles :) Xbox has issues, any one buying it, I would suggest you go for the PS3 or buy an alienware or a console. Not that I have anything against the Xbox, it just has issues.

Anyway's coming back to the point being.... Having a decent meal in the state of Maharashtra, has become more expensive, not only they ask for money after you have finished, but while you are trying to finish your meal, the good looking, decent guys on the other table, pay their bill and shoot you down! Quite a pleasant evening for a family of four that was having dinner at a cafe in the Town side of Mumbai, where I and some friends still hangout occasionnaly. Don't even get me started on the five stars! Thier bills usually come along with bullets AND hand grenades!

"Security", the word should have a new meaning today, for all of us here in maharashtra, with people I know, scrutinizing any one and every one around them, distrusting the authorities and generally having quiter, duller evenings at home. Ask them, what can they do about it? General answer would be, apparently nothing can be done and it will ball over. So much so, that when our city burns, people would still like to get their 15 minutes of fame. Barring the politicians, since they are the lowest strata of our society and we have made them that!

Having a look at the ads on tv, about the new initiative jagore.com, where you as youth are prompted to sign up for an election card and vote, and having gone through the experience of knowing and feeling that I am no longer safe in my own city, I decide that jagore.com should change their advertising campaign to ask us NOT TO VOTE. Its all becuase of our votes, i did say, So when it comes to voting, there is not one party or organization I trust to run India, or Maharashtra! or any other state or country for that matter. What I need in India, today is someone who is more than Obama. I know its the big O is overhyped, but he is the right person to run the U.S and I am waiting for the dark knigth to take the charge here and become what is necessary to become to bring this country o' mine on the rail tracks again!

Well, I day dream about a change here, and nothing happens. I sometimes feel of starting up a stall somewhere, where people could come and register for a "not to vote" movement.. or something.. but I haven't really figured out the specs yet. So if any out there reading this rambling of mine, could give me some ideas! that would be great. Why is it that I can only write about these things and when the time comes I have nothing to do? .... Well I leave you guys off thinking what I am thinking... if not doing... How do I Change the world, today? or a better question could be Can I?

Getting Big Plans!

Well, I have tried and I have tried more than enough, but for some reason only known to the pitch yielding folks downstairs, who have fiery parties every night, it seems like It never seems to happen to me! What?? is you may ask... 

Well, getting BIG.... No not as in Big, Bigger, Biggest - Big if you get my drift, but getting BIG as in the movie BIG, as in BIG in the ways of the world. There is this chord in my heart that keeps strumming a tune and because of which, all my efforts to actually mature up and give up ... never wring. It just keeps me going on, and getting more younger and more "teeny", and now that I can afford to be a teen all on my own, it makes all the more sense that I do be one and act one, the only hitch here is the expectations of my folks here... which sorry to say, I never kept up to, and Happily even!! 

What this all means in say about four words, is that, chuck - I am a getting an XBOX or a PS2slim .... Have a nice one folks!

Seemingly Endless

Well its been, as the title says or suggests "Seemingly Endless" time since I have posted here, I dont know who reads my runts o' rants. But I love writing here for some reason. As to about my where abouts, its been a  ride. 

Aren't we all tired about people generally saying "its been a ride" Its always a ride. Anyways back to the subject, been in a long slow period of attenuation, may be of recovering. From What?, you ask, well from "me" - yes on this blog its always insanely about me.

Its kinda hard to believe I am so many people in one, I have so much potential in me and I see so much of potential in everybody that surrounds me today. I see so much of potential in me, that I potentially dont get around to making the potentialities kinetics! Blah, i know.  But people never fail to amaze to me, they change fast and they change! 

I cant say I haven't. I have changed quite a lot since I last wrote here, but I still believe in what ever is written on this blog, not that any one reads it offcourse! :P Changed how? Well I have grown, gotten new experiences, gotten to see the side of people, that I thought never existed! 

Its like no matter what I do I will always be naive, lost and you know what, thats the way I like it, may be i want to stay lost! King Solomon here I come :D

Will post hopefully soon, if not soon sometime in the future, wont give up :D Have a nice one folks!